I relate to this SO HARD. I too have found myself so conflicted when coming across these sorts of Instagrams. There is such palpable envy when I think about their lifestyles but when I think about my aspirational lifestyle, the only crossover is the lack of adhering to someone else's ('The Man') schedule. The freedom of time is what I really want. Like you, I wouldn't actually be fulfilled if my income was reliant on me sharing intimacies with the Internet and permanently presenting a façade of perfection, and yet....the green eyed-monster surfaces and I do wonder.

I don't have an answer but I did enjoy reading your thought process and relating to it. Thank you for some great writing as always!


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